I'm mostly just coughing a lot still with a runny nose, but I'm feeling a good bit better than I was. It's still hard to keep up with the baby when Tim's working all the time, but after a little heart to heart with him tonight, he's pulling baby duty to give me a few moments of peace and a little extra sleep so I can actually get better completely. Before this the only free time I snagged was a daily shower... I know I need to start asking for help when I need it, not when I've hit the breaking point. A hard lesson for me.
Kat is still refusing to sleep on her back, so until we can find a better solution, she sleeps on us all night long. I figured out it's not her needing us to hold her, once she's asleep if you put her on her tummy she'll sleep happily for hours. I only do this when I'm sitting RIGHT next to her keeping an eye on her! Granted she has fantastic neck control and will lift herself up with her arms and reposition her head from side to side during sleep, but I am still too worried! We have her 1 month checkup on Monday, so we'll talk to Dr. Das about it... I'm not holding out too much hope there. We've tried swaddling, letting her cry it out, every different sleep surface in the house on all different inclines- nothing matters- within minutes of being put on her back no matter how deep her sleep she wakes up crying nay- screaming. My only 2 solutions at this point unless the doc has a better idea are- tough it out for a few more months until she's able to start rolling over on her own, at which point it's safe to let her tummy sleep... or find the money somewhere for one of those Angel Monitors so she can sleep on her tummy where ever she wants and I'll feel safe knowing that alarm will go off if she stops breathing. I know that I was a tummy sleeper as a baby, and many many folks did the same... I just can't take the chance with the SIDS risk. I'd never be able to rest. I can't ignore the research, and after a dear friend lost her son 2 years ago... I'm simply terrified.
Angel Monitor things- very cool- link here: http://www.amazon.com/Angelcare-Movement-Sensor-Nursery-Monitor/dp/B0000CEDRO/ref=wl_it_dp?ie=UTF8&coliid=I2MJKFIHPE3H42&colid=1OSKHBQSLMLTU
It would certainly allow me to actually sleep in my bed at night... but unfortunately it's not money we have at the moment. I'm tempted to start saving what pennies I get to buy this eventually- it may seem frivolous to some, but I actually know someone whose baby's life was saved by a monitor like this. It went off, and she went in to check her baby and she was blue- as soon as she woke her up she started breathing again. Turned out the baby had RSV and had to head to the hospital soon after, but it saved her life. That makes it definitely worth 80 bucks of my money... well that and the prospect of actual sleep at night! I'd pay for that LOL
Other than that things are going well. Kat is growing by leaps and bounds, her little face is already changing from her hospital pics. She's going to be so pretty I think... her eyes are so big and bright and curious with looooong curly eyelashes.... and when she smiles, she smiles with her whole face, she simply lights up. I have my times when I feel like I'm beyond my breaking point, but then she grins at me and it helps me keep going. I love this little potato head...
Tim and I are both tired, but trying to make time for each other. Since Kat's sleep schedule is so crazy, we mostly just relieve each other for sleep and don't get to spend any time together. We haven't been able to sleep together since Kat was born. We're trying to set up 'date nights' as often as possible so we can actually get some one on one time together without the baby- it does help some, but I miss getting to spend time with him! It's so weird, like I have a roommate that I have an occasional date with....
That's all for tonight... time to stay up all night again with Kat! Goddess Bless Netflix... tonight I'm watching Mists of Avalon all night long.
1 comment:
you are doing great! You will figure out all of your systems with sleep and Tim in time!!
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