Most days I feel like this pregnancy has just flown by. I was just remarking last week to Tim that it's really hard to believe that I'm already in my third trimester, because it feels to me like we just made the announcement to everyone... and got everyone's reactions to it.
Then there are the days... days when I remember just how far I am from where I started and how far away what little family I actually have actually is... days when all this lovely quiet alone time that I normally cherish gets to be too much, and there's no real option for me to relieve the boredom until it's time for Tim to wake up... days when a good book just doesn't cut it (and that's pretty rare for me lol)... days when I feel like my old friends from my old life maybe have just forgotten I'm up here since they don't see me every summer at festivals like they used to... days when I'm just hormonal, know it, and can't help it!... days when I feel a little lost and alone no matter what a great support system I have here.
I'm never homesick enough to wish I hadn't moved here, coming to Michigan was the best decision I've ever made, and 98% of the time I'm extraordinarily happy here (which is more than most people can ever boast no matter where they are!). I love the new family I have here, and I'm working hard to find friends I feel like I can rely on and trust... and there's really nowhere else I'd want my little girl to grow up because she's going to have such a big and loving family...
But then that other 2% of the time my days are just really long... and a bit empty... can't wait for Kat to get here so I have someone to play with!
Yes it's pitiful, LOL, but I'm feeling pitiful today and that's okay too...
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Your days will never be the same again, beautiful and more full then you could ask. Those days will fly by too and it will make you horribly sad. I only wish there where 48 hours in a day so I could play with Johnny more and more!!! Because it feels just like yesterday when Johnny was just a lump and needed everything of me and already he can hold his own bottle and it feels like he is moving out!! But nothing will be more wonderful then the days of her life, even as they fly by.
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