I have a nice husband...

Who brought me home flowers and chocolates this morning just because. :)

It's very nice to have a husband that kinda 'gets' that even though Kat is a happy baby, she's also very high maintenance... and though I'd like the house to be immaculate, she's always going to trump any kind of chore I have going on. He fully understands that being a Stay at home wife/Mom is a 24 hour job and that sometimes I need a break and sometimes I need a treat :)

I always post how Kat is doing... with not much mention of how I'm doing. That's sort of the way things work anymore. I don't really think much about how I'm doing unless I'm in the middle of a nervous breakdown. My time and thoughts are so consumed with taking care of her, Tim, and the house that I get relatively little time to think about my life.

So I'm thinking about it, and this is how I am:

Blessed- everytime I look at Kat my heart does a little extra bump in my chest and I'm so proud to be her momma.

Loved- Tim goes out of his way to help me when he can or when he actually thinks of it :).

Tired- all the time pretty much, Kat sleeps through the night, but she's a voracious eater and I'm breastfeeding anytime that I'm sitting down (including at the computer) the rest of my time is consumed with dishes, laundry, cleaning, sanitizing toys etc. I operate in a constant state of exhaustion. This, I've come to understand is how moms operate and will continue indefinitely. :)

Stressed- with a single income household we're always trying to squeeze a dime out of every penny he makes. Gas and Electric bills are astronomical in the winter here, so I'm cutting every coupon I can find- planning every meal, and budgeting every expense. Thank goodness for our tax returns or we'd have had trouble paying our basic bills this month. I'm proud that with my anal retentive budgeting, we're still making it and occasionally getting to splurge a little bit. The way things are going in the US right now, we're the lucky ones! I also worry about Kat constantly, but I know that's also how motherhood works.

Sore- She's getting heavier and heavier, so constantly carrying her around with one hand while performing chores with the other puts a strain on my already crappy back... so I'm kinda sore but nothing a nice hot shower wouldn't fix right up.

Forgetful- I try so hard to keep a handle on everything that inevitably something slips through the cracks- I can't seem to keep my brain on one topic for too long, so I've had to start writing everything down and getting as organized as possible so I don't forget anything too important. Unfortunately Tim is even more forgetful than me, so it's really my job to keep this family on time for things :) On time is now a relative term- if I remember within a few days I consider that a success, even if it's technically late.

Wishful- I wish for so many things- a minivan (lol), a dishwasher, a few hours to myself, more money, more time, a few extra hands, more room in the apartment, and at the moment- I'm wanting some orange juice LOL

So there you go, that's how I'm doing now that I've had a chance to think about it. Just heard the dryer stop, off to finish laundry!